The rains have come, at long last … the only beings which may stop time for me since the tree herder departed these matron-less woods … their cleansing tie dyes the mourning frost awakening the clover and naked ladies to blossom once more … I whisper only cherry seedlings.

The droplets must make a due as tears upon my apples cheeks … for the Lord of Fulgurites turned me to a dimpled sand dame moons ago … said sorrows loosing their path in the depths of “I love you, not” petal’s rotten refuse … still I ache for tenderness of his incapability.

So, let the mosses drink and feed well the ground ivy … fill the wanting pond, wash dust from emerging Summer’s hope … soak shall my seeking belly brood … the land will well recall my fair face and limbs of lacy longing … reborn I shall become in such sweetest glomming.

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I Want To Hear Your Voice

“ I Want To Hear Your Voice “

The newborn ducklings struggle with soft slumber toward a peace where the wild water’s edge knows no fear … a space once spoken of beneath kiss remised promises of star drizzled mew … red and orange roses, sea foam lace ribboned in Armenian mythologies …

Garter snakes sun themselves upon old growth stumps in the morning … before humankind awakens, they copulate coiling slick cool surrenders on the spawny mosses beneath Lady’s Mantle umbrellas … Though their mouths will ever remain too unsubstantial to feed on the fowl’s wet lain eggs, their nest hidden in dawn’s memory of how we sought each other within this same warmth …

Time has been a cruel mistress, a mere flicker remains to the white moths my heart light has harbored for you … I do not turn to the darkness, even when the battlements seem to have taken you away … this time for a permanence I cannot bear … stealing my garden chimes and sing song rhymes …

The flitting willow bird’s nod, shy as it may be, longs for the life we dreamt of … berry jams and honey comb drippings from shared syllables, tonal tantric rituals, beholden to one beloved breath … a tactical onomatopoeia …

The Light cried for the Goddess’ cause banishing beauty to the Underworld … selective seduction abides now lingering where once the salamanders paused to gaze in the clear night’s smoky vapors … only Her wisdom remains in the valleys of blue bell springs or cedar swept winters … searching for coupling every molecule until love’s quest thirst defends, hope sitting unsheathed, mercy amended, awaiting the tongues of grace in fallen snows and ashen oven understanding … to Unbind hearts knotted by misconceptions …

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Grief… the guilt — Aria-Bella Rises

It has been 8 full moons since my little right hand pooch left his body. 8 months of me processing, feeling, hiding and dealing with grief in all of its forms. Here is some learning that I have taken from it… this applies to anyone whether they have lost a pet, a friend, a […]

via Grief… the guilt — Aria-Bella Rises

Life is ever flowing ebb of rising/sweeping remission of emotional tides on which the human heart gallops. Opening the palm of the Soul to release a parent is one of the most delicate experiences I have ever been through. Still, walking this path’s journey. Love knows no bounds.
12:52 PM · Feb 15, 2018

Papa,

I believe I  am finally breathe once  more. You are ever my hero, protector, and the most brilliant man I have yet to meet. Miss you like crazy but, it is time to take that path we always talked about so many hours beneath our beloved trees here.

All  My Love,

Your Baby Doll

Walter C. Dunlap of Revere | 1939 – 2017 | Obituary

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You Ought To Know

Portraits 2014 010

Someone has been killing our cats,

Demonic river congo rats,

Seizure tremor clabber dinner,

Milk poured from Death's sovereign vat,

Trespass coochie bubble grass,

A sea of stolen starlight cast,

To sail my soul, rasp, and sinner,

Until our veils vapor shimmer,

Love remains life's dearest need,

Whole womb, doom, venom, or seed,

Dare cause to arise, must's do plea,

Cherries sweetest cyanidic,

Forgiveness, poison, daily bleed.

In memory of Jabber Box aka Jack 
the Cowboy Cat. He was thankful for 
every mouthful he received and
defined love more concicely than 
we humans can imagine. 

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Oleander Greed

The catalpa pods dangle, hesitant paper laces in the hushed secrets of the Autumn winds … above and in sentry over the first blush cascades of promising rose hips, nourishment the summer fauns will savor come winter’s killing frost … slightness of the morning turning her palms in offering first testament … there uplifts a billowed lantern dance in unconcealed oneness urging the wood ducks to favor the openness of the lake’s center … thus, they ride on crystal carronades of split prism prayer parades … carnival red, gold, and green gleam … Soul drifts upon this thirst of suggestion, pagoda patter beneath cool bare feet, stone and moss married amongst calliopes with tender mints supplanted … silver bells kiss consternation pouring forth amicable intentions of reaching ignorance’s temple where rest no knowledge of ever knowing touch … the taste of mead and marigolds drunk with a dark silence met … I am your vital leech field, swamp to suckle mud fed seeds, thus, his milky and honey oleander greed.

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The precipice of summer lingers …

The precipice of summer lingers lying quietly to the definitions we cling to … ritual eggs brighten rows freshly tilled by plow shears we forged from the last glance our eyes held with the starving peregrines on the ledges of the city towers … their children are dried to hollow dusty holograms … the tapping of a heart’s chain slung carelessly to trip the rainbow’s remains for their want of nurturing spittle … rain too far a distant dust bowl dagger slit in lamb’s wool absorption to quench  … we are vain, almost vulgar, in calling for a holy preservation of the child Self … the yoked sack membrane damp as the due we all crawl through eventually in suckling dread hours … the remainder of stains on duckling cliffs ruby~ing palms and knees … my toes turn in, Leo knows how it hurts, how the martin’s purple came to be … why  can’t we take our hands off the joy stick of illusion long enough to know … giving up creation to create with each other … for whatever time we are afforded by the roadside ditches or in marble mansions … ambling, rambling, or scrambling for its living breath … is by design a worthy purpose …

4-23-2017
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More ?

Art work credit: Bloodletting by © CanisAlbus

More …
Tis all I find above sullen skies to sate the Spirit’s climb,
In salty seas to spice the dining of craven hunger bowls,
On Earth to fodder flower, fain, or fauns away from Winter’s stole,
Saving graces by only thine, my fires consumption burns whole,
This Soul of mine was rebuked to despair’s hellish holes,
For the labour of Sin Eaters is seldom seen for its gold,
Until death and decrepit darkness announces me rendered,

As She or Her at last,
So, yes please, … bleed me until I am blind.

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NaPoWriMo 2017 #7

Glory’s voice, utterer, potter’s wheel clay culled of Crone Moon and Milky Way,

Starchild, do not seek tenders and hope amongst the colors of your visioned sight,

The heart who claims love yet, holds the darkness as for you a guiding light,

Captive, craven you shall become, as the raven is to the black he sought for envy,

Feed them not with green pools, copper lamp pupil gated souls. sweet glance or glare,

For turning away will their mechanism be, to fantasy, id and ego plated, awaited,

Delicious dishes mirrored selves, both snails and eggs and puppy dog tails,

Go out instead and dress the trees in this your lorn laced ruffled sleeves,

Arm fulls embrace, curtsy the leaves, kissing bark veins, cheeking mossy tellings,

Drawn water as if sapling springs from mountain thaws, awakening warmth in their further fruits,

Not yet even a bud of thought in a twig’s lonesome dreams, when Autumn sings,

There will be found the seeds, the husk for Earth and Star’s child to circle round,

Rhyme past thyme sleeping lazy in the summer sun swinging on the ripened vine,

Hop the creek, toes to minnows cool waters, and algae slimes as tadpoles divine time there,

Now lives for the beauty the children feel in their close and most precious Host,

The Voices of our souls can not express lest we sing the cellular Nature songs,

When we were and Who we are while dancing to Where shall we go next my friend ?

NaPoWriMo 2017 #6

Bella Rosa Dreams

(for all my Sisters who have survived to rise again)

I used to come here to write … to find some semblance of sanity in this otherwise maddened waking world … today there are people squawking venom at each other and pretending to call that love … love grows on a willow trees, from welts the flesh  pleas while tied fast to the briers’ sting … you’d rather Cerridwen’s swine be dragging you through the cold December mud than pray your hand defend you in the fight for freedom … for that child has every right to bear dignity … oh yes, it’s still the mind bend of whips and chains, the stare of wishes into coffin remains that will greet you each day … black nights spent looking for a candle flicker beneath the doorway, from some enchanted creature who stole through the gates undiscovered … to shadowing their light on a darkness of your poems … perhaps, she’s floating on a muddled puddle reflection … the moonless night left when he trundled off to bed behind the castle ruins … dragons of chained for eating the neighbors cows again… she found a slip knot and shimmied through to bring me a single ray of hope … to weave catching my breath through curls and carry quietly … for when it all got too blue we’d pull it out and blast them back to the hell from hence they came… Tonight though, be it night or day it matters not for light never reaches us here … I am bound about laid out and powdered, oiled, perfumed, and laced up to view … to skew … to pile drive with out even a word … Tonight I’m yours to do …
Your back gulching drum driven desires crawl scream tagged and beaten back down my darkest faith forbidden fathomless bottom hole … where I lay worn in pretty bows your mind assigns to cover tattered worn ash … where only hatred flames remain … the gains of piercing bores bite first my back flesh.. yes, gain your stronghold there, while you bust me from behind dig the very marrow of your finger bones though my breasts to the hollow my heart used to reside in before I let you dine on my self negligence … tear them from my torso if you will … I am bound … I am will less … rip out my hair if i would lend you my neck … veins to slice and suckle madly … red velvet love wine spilling over … flowing fount of your mouth’s gauge and the violent bucking you train my ass to follow or it’s more pain for me … my bound arms back about your neck … legs tied wide you could stand with me if you wished … if you dared … I am surrender in every language a man every sought to teach a woman … since he found she could subdue him with her selves … If you get greedy enough to lick the blood running down my spine in a Kundalini serpentine candy column crimson velvet … wings will sprout from your wounds and I will grow horns upon my raven black head … i will spear you if you dare give me an opening … for We are the daughters of Goddess, her hand maidens … born to the breasts of the Valkeries when the Our Father sought us too eagerly , too soon, too sickly for his wounds …

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